Φυσάει απόψε περασμένους έρωτες..

ΣΕ ΧΡΟΝΟ ΕΝΕΣΤΩΤΑ

Θέλω τον έρωτά σου
στο χρόνο του τον ενεστώτα,
οριστικό και αμετάκλητο,
δίχως υποτακτικές υπεκφυγές,
αμφίβολους αορίστους
και μέλλοντος κατ’ εξακολούθηση.
Θέλω τον έρωτά σου
μικρή παθητική
μετοχή,
παραδομένο 
εξαρτημένο
θυμωμένο,
να μεταγγίζεσαι ολάκερη
ως τον τελευταίο σπασμό
και να σου γνέφω
κι άλλο.
Θέλω τον έρωτά σου
εξουσία κι επανάσταση.


Βουλιάζει η αγάπη σε πέλαγα τρικυμισμένα. Χωρίς κουπιά αφήνεται η βάρκα να δέρνεται στα κύματα, αναλώνοντας ζωές που έζησαν το μισό απ’ όσο άξιζαν. Πορεύτηκαν σε γραμμές τυφλών, ψηλαφώντας ένα-ένα τα σημάδια σε σώματα που σπαρταρούσαν δαιμονισμένα το « Σε Θέλω».
Διάφανες καταδύσεις γυρεύουν χαμόγελα, για να καταδυθούν αισθήσεις αήττητες με καθαρτήριες λέξεις, στους βωμούς της ματαιότητας. Βουβές μένουν, για ν’ αφουγκράζονται ψιθύρους που σκηνοθετούν ερήμην τους όνειρα.


ΝΑ ΛΥΓΙΣΕΙ Ο ΧΡΟΝΟΣ

Να λυγίσει ο χρόνος
να γίνει το σώμα μου
και πάλι
αιμοφόρο αγγείο
και να εκλιπαρεί
μια μικρή μετάγγιση
απ’ τα φιλιά σου. 


ΛΕΞΕΙΣ

Υπάρχουν λέξεις
που δεν μπορούν
να μιλήσουν
παρά κάτω από
το λιγοστό
φως ενός κεριού.
Θέλουν να νιώθουν
χέρια ιδρωμένα
και σώματα που
μπλέκουν σε ξέστρωτα
σεντόνια.
Υπάρχουν λέξεις
που μόνο αν τις
κοιτάξεις κατάματα
θα σου πουν
την αλήθεια τους.


Με κλειστά παραθυρόφυλλα η λήθη, αρνείται ν’ απορρίψει καταπατημένους όρκους περασμένων ερώτων. Δεν είναι η λησμονιά που αγρυπνά ώρες φονικές, ρίχνοντας στη φωτιά α-μνήμονη μνήμη. Είναι η ανάμνηση που πονά, συνάζοντας πρόσωπα στην τροχιά των συναισθημάτων. Κι αν αγριεύει ο αέρας, θα φυλαχτούν καλά οι επιστροφές των αισθήσεων. Λαχταρούν να υποταχτούν τυφλά σε σελίδες που γράφουν τ’ απομνημονεύματα της καρδιάς, με τον χρόνο να συμφιλιώνει τις αποστάσεις.


ΛΗΘΗ

Ρίξε πάνω σου,
πρόχειρη εσάρπα,
τη λήθη.
Φυσάει απόψε
περασμένους έρωτες.


Αλύτρωτοι έρωτες καταχωρούνται σε μητρώα άστρων που κατοικήθηκαν σε ασύνορα περιγράμματα. Στρατιές ποιημάτων κατέφθαναν να καταλάβουν ψυχές και σώματα στη αυλή των θαυμάτων. Μοιρασμένα αποθέματα, έγιναν λόγος λίγο πριν ξημερώσει. Φθαρτά σώματα ντυμένα με στίχους μετασχηματίστηκαν σε άφθαρτα ποιητικά σώματα στη ροή του χρόνου. Δικαιωμένοι κι αδικαίωτοι πόθοι στις γραμματοσειρές ενός απαγορευμένου ονείρου.


ΤΟ ΜΗΤΡΩΟ ΤΩΝ ΑΣΤΡΩΝ

Να βιαστώ να ξεκουμπώσω
το πουκάμισό σου,
να φιλήσω το πρόσωπό σου
ν’ αγγίξω το σώμα σου.
Να βιαστώ να σ’ αγαπήσω
καταχωρώντας σε
στο μητρώο των άστρων.
Κι αύριο,
σαν ξημερώσει,
να σε κάνω ποίημα.


Χωρισμένοι εαυτοί εκτίουν ποινές ισόβιας θλίψης αλαφροπατώντας στον παράδεισο. Σε καμιά κόλαση δεν χωρούν εραστές που ερωτοτροπούν αμίλητοι, ψηλαφώντας αισθήσεις. Τα απολιθωμένα ίχνη μαρτυρούν στο στρώμα την ανάμνηση αποχαιρετισμών στα ικριώματα της αγάπης .


ΙΣΟΒΙΑ ΘΛΙΨΗ

Από τότε
που έφυγες
εκτίω ποινή
σε ισόβια θλίψη.



ΑΣΩΤΟ ΣΥΝΑΙΣΘΗΜΑ

Θέλω να πλύνω το σώμα σου
απ’ όλα τα χτεσινά φιλιά,
να πλύνω με τ’ αναφιλητά μου
όλα τα χάδια που έγερναν
πάνω σου
πολύ πριν με γνωρίσεις.




Ελένη Μαυρογονάτου 

Listen..

Oh, son, listen...
… I know you wish some things could have been resolved. 
Closure, they call it. 
But life is just a lot of loose ends. 
So smile. 
Love that woman you have, and love that new little girl that you're going to have...

Burden..

You love someone, you open yourself up to suffering, that's the sad truth..

Maybe they'll break your heart, maybe you'll break their heart and never be able to look at yourself in the same way.

Those are the risks.That's the burden..

Like wings, they have weight. We feel that weight on our backs, but they are a burden that lifts us..
Burdens that allow us to fly..

Who knows how to make love stay?

1. Tell love you are going to the Junior's Deli on Flatbush Avenue in Brooklyn to pick up a cheesecake, and if love stays, it can have half. It will stay.

2, Tell love you want a memento of it and obtain a lock of its hair. Burn the hair in a dime-store incense burner with yin/yang symbols on three sides. Face southwest. Talk fast over the burning hair in a convincingly exotic language. Remove the ashes of the burnt hair and use them to paint a mustache on your face. Find love. Tell it you are someone new. It will stay.


3. Wake love up in the middle of the night. Tell it the world is on fire. Dash to the bedroom window and pee out of it. Casually return to bed and assure love that everything is going to be all right. Fall asleep. Love will be there in the morning.





''All depression has its roots in self-pity, and all self-pity is rooted in people taking themselves too seriously.''


Tom Robbins

Closing Cycles - Paulo Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through.

Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished. Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden?

You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that.

But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back.

Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away. That is why it is so important (however painful it maybe!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.

Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the ideal moment. Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person. Nothing is irreplaceable. A habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through.

We try..

"Booth: I lost my appetite because you made me think about all those people parading around pretending to be something they aren’t just so they could have crappy sex.
Brennan: How do you know it’s crappy?
Booth: Gotta be, Bones. Come on, it’s gotta be.
Brennan: Why?
Booth: Why? I’ll tell you why. Here we are, all of us, basically alone, separate creatures, just circling each other, all searching for that slightest hint of a real connection. Some look in the wrong places. Some — they just give up hope because, in their mind, they’re thinking, ‘Oh, there’s nobody out there for me,’ but all of us we keep trying over and over again. Why? Because every once in a while…every once in a while, two people meet and there’s that spark, and, yes, Bones, he’s handsome and she’s beautiful and maybe that’s all they see at first, but making love…making love…that’s when two people become one.
Brennan: It is scientifically impossible for two objects to occupy the same space.
Booth: Yeah, but what’s important is we try, and when we do it right, we get close.
Brennan: To what? Breaking the laws of physics?
Booth: Yeah, Bones — a miracle. Those people with their role-playing and their fetishes and their little sex games, it’s crappy sex, well, you know, at least compared to the real thing.
Brennan: (staring at him, faintly smiling) You’re right."

Compassion

I know we don’t always agree on how, but we both hoped for the same thing: a just world. 

If I’ve ever learned anything it’s that we can never let the chaos and injustice make us so blind with anger that we become part of the problem. 

Understanding, compassion, kindness and love are the only true revolutionary ideals. When we compromise those, we become what we despise, and we loose our humanity. 

The world might see my legacy as one of violence and destruction, but I know that you are my real legacy and for that I will be thankful every day.